A Religio-Political Odyssey, Part 3
Posted by Keen Observer on January 31, 2012
So, presuming no one is bored at my rambling yet, I shall continue…
I spent some time adrift after leaving school sans degree. This was in 1991, when I should have convocated as a teacher, as did many of my friends. Instead, I was somewhat aimless. Employment prospects poor, I didn’t quite know what to do. I didn’t much care about other things, either. I had my first brush with what might be called depression, though it was never diagnosed as such. I scared my family by doing a very good impression of a rock for about eight hours uninterrupted one day.
I almost left university, I should say. With nothing better to do, I went back in the fall to take classes towards a degree in English Literature. That kept me occupied somewhat, and I was exposed to ideas further left than my usual ones, especially in the person of a poet I met in one of my classes, one with certain…issues, let’s say. I absorbed some of these ideas and reflected them back to the world. I learned a higher level of analytical reading and presentation. I honed my writing skills. I thought about doing graduate work, but it really didn’t appeal to me, and I had certain…limitations imposed because of my math/physics grades. I stayed out of politics, mostly, but I voted every election. One can argue that it is a citizen’s highest civic duty, but it was never something I let slide past me, even if all I did was spoil a ballot.
During this time also, I did spend some time with my poet friend and her circle. Except for rare circumstances, I never really felt part of the group, though. I didn’t really understand why, except that I knew at a recognisable level that they were not my people. Different ideas. Diff’rent strokes. Different aims and beliefs. At most levels, except for occasional literary discussions, I could not relate to them as a group. The thought of “conservatism” still left me cold, believing as I did what the media and my acquaintances told me about it and the PC Party of Canada (or Saskatchewan). and I largely considered myself a centrist or centre-left kind of guy. I had not yet realised that I was being fed news pablum, but I did have a sense that there were gaps of some sort (at least on a subconscious level).
I ultimately finished that degree in 1994, but again had no idea what to do with it. No job, no prospects. Unsure. My cousin got married that year, and the wedding was in Sydney, NS. I went, invited as relative and MC. Did not distinguish myself, but it was somewhat life-changing. I had taken geology as an elective, and I got to see out east some things discussed in class, and I began to understand the story the earth tells, if you know how to read it. This intrigued me to the point that I wanted to learn more, and so I re-enrolled upon my return: something finally excited me.
Something else excited me: my sister’s best friend, freshly graduated from high school. For some reason at that ceremony, something changed relative indifference to strong attraction, to the point that while far away from Saskatoon, I kept thinking about her at fairly regular intervals. There’s much more detail, but for my purposes now, I had something else to occupy my mind. We started dating that fall, despite some initial reluctance on my part, and she was central to my life for 16 years, and still currently has a peripheral–but significant–effect on it.
I had goals again; I was excited; I had things to do. With new things to keep me engaged in my life, I again started following politics more closely. I again kept being unsure of myself. I questioned my agnosticism. I kept thinking things the government did were a bit stupid; in my house, however, criticising the provincial NDP government was not generally wise. Based on things I understood at the time, the federal government, Liberal-run, seemed to be going OK, so I had no complaints. Quebec separatism frequently came up as a topic. For that, I saw little reason in appeasement, even with my French-Canadian heritage, so in that regard I was on the opposite side of my supposed party. I would be unhappy with the breaking of Confederation, but I just could not see how they could be so stupid about it. How little did I know at the time, but the press seemed not interested in portraying the true nature of the complaints, as I have now come to understand them.
I finished my geology degree program, which is where I developed a grounding in the historical temperature record. This (among other reasons that would take up other posts completely) informed my resistance to climate change as having any human-caused component, something that set me apart from most people for a long time. I worked as a well-site geologist for about 4 years after that, which also let me to be exposed to a larger world of ideas, including those of surprisingly-educated rig workers.
During this time, I found a left-leaning blog, one of those at right on the main page of this blog: grrlmeetsworld. In it (I can’t remember how I found it) the writer recounted her own political journey from US Southern Christian right to a leftist doing grad work at my university. It interested me, and it was interesting to read how she stopped adhering to the politics she had grown up around. A lot of the change seemed to be propelled by the Christian part of the politicking, to which I could somewhat relate, but in the other direction. I even commented there a few times, even after moving to Calgary. But that’s getting ahead. I learned a lot from her, some of which she might not appreciate, but some things continued to leave me confused.
The rigs were also the milieu in which I was when the attacks of 9/11 happened. Clear as day are some of my memories around that time, though others from that time have deteriorated. I was just coming on shift shortly after the first plane hit. Oddly, it just seemed like a run-of-the-mill disaster to be watched with ghoulish interest. And I was watching as the second plane hit. My first reaction was, “Oh. My. God.” There was no mistaking that for an accident. My second reaction was, “Those stupid, stupid fuckers.” I had no doubt in my mind who was responsible, at least in broad form, and I knew they had just changed the world in an instant. I also knew that hell was coming for them.
(to be continued…)
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